Kimi Shy

I care too damn much At some point in your life, you come to figure out that growing up and growing old happens to be 2 different things. Growing up is much more mental that it's physical and it's not restricted to age brackets, growing old however is. Here are a few things I have stumbled on about me while struggling to grow up I actually do care (sadly a bit too much.) I have read a few self-help books on how to live a life of no qualms but I happen to be one of those people who does care. I give a s*@$ about the person who will use the public toilet after me and I give a care about the person who will clean it so I don't leave a mess behind. I  care about the people who I will talk to during the day so it makes me brush my teeth and I do in fact care a lot to have a bath so that I don’t kill the people I meet with bad odours. I care about my friends so much so that I pray for them and I reach out when I can but most importantly even while  I can't I make...

Photo by Kyle Glenn on Unsplash Been sitting in this position of stagnation Watching doors open and close in trepidation My emotions jumble in confusion When will it be my turn? People pass me in this chair the walls are rock surrounded by air doors opening and closing, despair When can I get going? The time ticks by as I watch Slowly draining as a trough While I fight to clutch Are all my dreams now dead? The sound of hope as doors burst open Window agape as glass lay broken A way to pass I see as I awaken After discovery in this waiting room. -YD- How I hate to wait. I strongly dislike standing still and just waiting for time to pass, for something to happen. I tell myself that God has got to find me here, if I stand still long enough God has got to hear me, but I still stand there waiting for something to happen and most times nothing does. When I was much younger when things don't turn out as I planned for them to; I d...

You are sitting in your house minding your business, the Electricity providers, truck passes by, you are not worried, they back up and stop at your house gate and try to bully your poor gate man to open the gate. You have however given him specific instruction not to let THOSE PEOPLE in again. It’s war. So they call you, you go to meet them and the AEDC people try to intimidate you into opening the gate, for them to check what you don't know as there is no prepaid meter.  They promise to come back another day for more action if you don't show them your bill. Bill you have paid oh, so you relent and show them.                                   The next month they bring a new bill and somehow, with the same amount of light they give you, you have managed to use triple the amount of power you used the previous month.  That first wave of hopelessness is felt before the anger sets i...

,Little girl, happy voice, hope is the word, see something pretty Daddy's Girl, going to be great, happy heart, so you think I am pretty ,Painful cramps, broken heart, busy mind, don't know that I am pretty ,Big nose, brown skin, brown eyes, nice girl, do you think I am pretty Flat tummy, long legs, thick glasses, slow speech, do you think I am pretty, No food, bitter tea, first class, Glass smile, so I can be pretty, Big bed, late night, hot breath, hate myself, but do you think I am pretty, Smart mind, quick speech, read all, don't matter, do you think I am pretty, Great heart, nice smile, your girl, do you think I am pretty, Hate me, love me, leave me, but do you think I am pretty, .Found my myself, happy again, hopeful again, so I know I am pretty  - YD "Whatever role we had to play, whether it was the tom boy, the wall flower or the blooming beauty, We took it on like  champs...

Welcome to 2017 (as if I am the gate keeper to the year. lol) in the spirit of new things, I have some questions that have been on my mind and I will love to share with you.  I wrote this post late last year, but i figured the best way to start a new page is to ask questions then spend the whole time finding answers.  I read somewhere that the questions we ask ourselves improve our experience of any given situation. If you don't fully understand something you cannot fully expose yourself to something you don't understand. So based on my quest to fully understand life I  have a few questions to ask and though  they are not ground breaking, they are questions I have and will like to know your answers to. Caution you will find no answers here...👀👀 What is shame and why do we have it? is it a reflex of our minds to help us not do the stuff we have imposed on ourselves as wrong? Why is it that people who work hard do not get any returns but...

Beware of Long Post :D                                        Effiong  was not made for school all he wanted to do was play football, but his father won't let him play, he was meant to be a doctor in this life and cure his father arthritis.  So while he stared blankly at the huge  textbooks his father had procured from the kind second hand book seller, Effiong dreamt about Kanu, Maradonna and all those great men who chased around a little ball to put in a hole.  One day he skipped school and was playing with his friend on a dusty field where the village people dried clothes on the weekends, one man walked up to him and told him he was a good player and asked to see his father. After much resistance from the parents and a few consultations with the local prophet, he was allowed to go ahead to play football. He finally made it nationally and internationally ear...